To control, or not to control.. is that even a question?

I think that humans are control freaks. Present company excepted.. We want to do the best, be the best, wipe whatever is in our way, out, to get what we want. Use whatever tool we can to make sure that we finish first, that we finish on top.
It is pretty sick really.
When did we stop caring about how the way we behave hurts people?

I hurt people. I was hurt by people. The question I think, is what is next?
Where do I go from here?
What am I in control of?

Its a tough question. There are things I actually am in control of, there are things I wish I were in control of, there are things I need to be in control of, but are not, and there are things that I desperately wish I had no control over.

But it still doesn't answer the inevitable question, What am I in control of?

I can choose. But I am afraid. Period.